LOVE

How do you define love? I believe ‘pure’ love is giving whatever you have; whatever you could to the person you love, expecting nothing in return.
Is this possible at all in this world?
I think it is not possible, though there are some exceptions which I will also discuss.

Well, when someone says that he loves his girlfriend, if taken literally he is telling a lie in some way. Would he be saying the same thing if she does not love her back or leave him for someone else. Would he still be ready to do whatever it takes to make her happy? The ‘expectation’ part is always there. It’s almost impossible to take that out from the equation. You cannot keep on giving without getting anything in return. This trade of giving and taking is not love. It is what we can say ‘a relationship’. Relationships are more of a buyer seller phenomenon. It’s a trade. Though positive emotions may be involved in a relationship but bounded by millions of constraints or expectations. If the constraints are not met it does not take much time for this positive to change to negative and the so called pseudo love going for a toss.

There is only one exception to this that I could ever know with my limited knowledge. The love of a mother for her child. The exception fully holds especially when the child is an infant or very young. The motherly love is the purest. In most cases when the child grows up to have some senses, the expectation from the mother could be there. But here also she doesn’t expect much. She will do 100 things for you and maybe expect one in return.
The others in this picture could be figures who are gods for some people. Buddha, Sri Krishna, Guru Nanak etc. or great people like Mother Teresa. It is known and generally said that they loved the whole humanity. But these entities are like one in billions.

The next time you buy a 100 flower bouquet on valentine day for your girlfriend. Just think did you ever gift a single flower to your mother.

I have become extremely emotional while writing this article. I miss u MOM.

People who suck

1) Guys with a weird split personality. With you, they will be quite normal. When some unknown third person (mostly gals) comes in the scene they will start acting as if they are the coolest dude ever on earth ~ “Go get a life, loser”

2) Guys who ask questions in the class or conferences, just for the heck of it. Everybody, including them knows that the questions are stupid. ~ “Listen nerd, if you really want to grab attention why don’t you do some monkey dance. I am sure that will solve your purpose and ours too”.

3) People who boast about their boozing capacity and think that it really made them macho. ~ “Hey,I heard you also took 3 bottles in your backside, You are a real Tarzan dude.”

4) Woh log jinki har baat se fut jati hai. If the sensex goes down by 50 points they think that they won’t get a campus placement this year.

5) Some guys, when they see a normal small town guy would say “ He is so desi and uncool” ~ “ Yeah man, I know your Mother got screwed in London by a firangi begger”

6) People who have listened to only “Nothing Else Matters” and “ Sweet child O mine” and would say that they are into heavy metal ~ “Atleast you are somewhat better than those gals who think that Britney Spears is rock”.
I respect people who like listening to Himesh Reshamiya , atleast they are not fake.

7) People who say that they are into adventure sports and they have only trekked in their life and that too only vaishno devi.

8) Gals who say that they look for only intelligence, sensitivity and sense of humour in their dream man, money and looks doesnt matter to them ~ " Why does then that rich dumb brat in the Mercedes get all the chicks ? Oh I see you are not like most of the girls. But why does every girl says the same thing.

9) People who pretend to have accents which they dont have and they do a really bad job of faking it. Even worse than those are anchors of TV shows on Mtv, Channel V and Zoom who speak hindi in english accent. I feel like entering the TV and slapping those bitches.

10) Couples who get overly cozy in public places like pubs and restaurants.. " I have a great idea for you guys .. " If you really want the public to see you guys making out, why dont you make a MMS or a porn movie ? You can earn some bucks as well"

11)Politicians like Raj Thackarey who are worse than the LeT terrorists.I need not explain why.I think Indian Govt. should send him to Pakistan and get from them some most wanted terrorist as an exchange.That would be really cool.

12)People who look for reasons to boast about their financial well being..Yaar my Honda Accord is parked there..lets go. What the heck dude? Did I ask your car's name or are you a salesboy of Honda Accord.

13) People who send fwd text msgs on diwali or other occasions.."May this diwali lights up you life...blah blah " Fuck u man !! do u even rememeber the names of all the people you send this sms..forget about meaning what you are sending.

14)Females 25+ years old who get extremely excited and cry and faint after sighting any of their favourite Bollywood actor..Its high time gurl..high time..grow up now.

15) People who call themselves crazy and insane and think that it made them cool. A proper word for them is asshole.


~ List To be updated

LOSER

A loser stands out of the race. He is sick and tired of the rat race. The race is never ending. The place is full of hypocrites and even bigger losers than him.Now he gets the time for self introspection. He is amused at himself " why was he running" ? He was not getting any happiness or peace of mind. Were it the pressure of the society? But why? Society itself is worthless. Its spineless with no principles. Fuck the society.

Maybe he didnt know what to do. He was just doing what everyone does i.e. follow the herd.
He studied somthing because all the so called bright kids were doing that. After some years of uninteresting work in the job; he is again studying something which is again all bull and crap. What is the use of all this effort ? The void is still there. He is still unhappy. Sometimes, he seems to laugh and enjoy with his friends but he knows that he is getting wasted from inside. He dreams of bringing about a revolution in the society - but how can one man change everything. So many great people couldnt do anything. The society still sucks like always. Pessimism rides over him.

Loser wants to run away from everything. He wishes to delve into some other place. A utopian world of nothingness. But he knows he cannot. He is too weak. He has to run the rat race again or else he will be named the looser of the society. He is too scared of societal disgrace.

He is waiting for the day when all his patience will run out. The day when he will have the utmost courage to free himself from the sickness. He longs for that day. But till then.....the loser runs on.

Rock Stars

My favourite animal is dog..specifically street dog.
Street dogs are like rock stars of the animal world; maverick in every sense; lean, mean and ready to swear anytime.Life is sometimes tough, but what the heck, they have got what a pet can never think of i.e.all the freedom in the world . Freedom to pee wherever they feel like, freedom to bark at anyone, freedom to sleep and loiter anywhere and yeah plenty of screwing options as well. I pity those pet dogs, unfortunate sons of the bitches they are :)) .
The toughest part is the old age when their life is usually screwed by some disease and lack of support by fellow doggies. These doggies are animals after all. I dont know why we are called humans, we usually behave like them.

O my holy God ( I mean whoever make dogs) ; Please make me a street dog in my next life (I wanna be a Rock Star.. lol) and make sure that I die before my old age; getting crushed under some car. Believe me that kind of instant death is great; you wont feel a thing.

Numbness

I dont know why I am enjoying my own company like never before. I dont like meeting new people. I have started keeping more quiet. Is this depression??? No..i dont think so. Infact I am happy with my life. I have got everything that one can ask for: career,family,friends and what not.
I have started becoming neutral towards most of the things . Rather than hating things or people that annoy me, I have started ignoring them. They dont bother me as much as they used to.I am not getting ecstatic so easily. I feel as if I am in a continuous trance with myself. Whats this numbness all about? Am I turning into a saint? Hell no.
Am I wasting my precious moments of life? Who cares?
When I am alone, I dont think much about the future or past or even present. Half of the time my brain is dead and the other half I get all the random thoughts in the world. Thoughts like "What if I die the next minute? "What if I could travel through time?"Whats in the mind of that dog who is looking at me ?"
Damn..thats so weird.
Am I turning insane? Well none of my friends are telling me this. I am pretty sure thay are going to point out any abnormality if they notice it.
Or I was always like this? Thats why they are not noticing anything.
But I know I am not the way I used to be.
What the hell? Again I am thinking so weird.
Maybe I am on my way to Nirvana. That sounds good. I accept that.

Bullet in my Head

Bullet is not a motorcycle for me. It is a passion. It is my attitude.
I am in love with the beast since my childhood days. Most of my early life was spent in or around the Army Cantonment areas and the sight of those Army Bullets...frankly better than the sight of the most beautiful ladies.
I got a chance to ride a bullet when I was in class 12 and I can still remember the goosebumps that I got. That macho feeling; that pride; that freedom and the oneness of my heartbeat with the thump of the beast.
I could not afford to buy a bullet then and only when I started earning I could lay my hands on the machine. The year was 2004 when I proudly joined the cult. I bought a STD 350. Frankly I am not fond of other models.
Bullet is my best friend and a great stress buster. I prefer riding it at night after 12 and my usual ride is the Ring Road or the Delhi Cantt. area. The thump in the dead of the night gives me a high; a feel of nirvana.
Many guys argue that Bullet is nothing compared to heavy machines built by Harley Davidson. Well I have plenty of respect for the big daddy of motorcycles but I must say that Bullet is a thing which should not be compared. It has a class of its own and people who adore it wont find anything better in this world. I rented a Harley Davidson in Thailand for 3 hrs. It was a good ride but I badly missed my baby's thump.
A song dedicated to my baby :

And the road becomes my bride
I have stripped of all but pride
So in her I do confide
And she keeps me satisfied
Gives me all I need
And with dust in throat I crave
Only knowledge will I save To the game you stay a slave
Rove or wanderer Nomad, vagabond Call me what you will
But I'll take my time anywhere ;Free to speak my mind anywhere
And I'll redefine anywhere
Anywhere I roam ,Where I lay my head is home.
~ METALLICA


BULLET FOR LIFE :)

My Favourite quotes

I am such a lazy bum that i dont like reading thick books; even though I have deep interest in different philosophies. But,I do like reading different philosophers and their work in wikipedia.
Quotes always interests me, coz they are short and I can ponder over them lazily for hours. I am listing some of my favourite quotes. I hope you will ponder a bit too.

1) There's more to the truth than just the facts. ~Author Unknown.

2) The obscure we see eventually. The completely obvious, it seems, takes longer. ~Edward
Murrow.

3) A gun gives you the body, not the bird. ~Henry David Thoreau

4) By daily dying I have come to be. ~Theodore Roethke

5) You can't wake a person who is pretending to be asleep. ~Navajo Proverb

6) When you look into an abyss, the abyss also looks into you. ~Friedrich Nietzche

7) The opposite of a correct statement is a false statement. But the opposite of a profound
truth may well be another profound truth. ~Niels Bohr

8) It is better to know some of the questions than all of the answers. ~James Thurber

9) I am not a marxist ~ Karl Marx. (My favourite quote)

ECSTACY IN DECAY

Well, I have titled this writing "Ecstacy in Decay" . Actually its one of the songs of "Cannibal Corpse" . Some guys might think the reason for the name is that i get ecstacy in decay but its the other way round; my ecastacy is in continuous decay :)) .
I still remember when i was a kid I was a happy happy kid, but as I started growing up my head started getting full of hatred. When I started observing people and their motives I came to know that almost all of them are so mean and stupid that finding a good human being is a kind of privilege.
Let me define a bad human being:
1) Someone who doesnt do anything in case an accident happens on road. He just stands and stares and collect some story to narrate to his friend.
2) Someone who will blow Rs. 5000/- in a night club in one night and wont give Rs. 10/ to a charity for homeless children.
3) Someone who is the happiest person in this world in case a boy takes birth in his home and saddest in case of a girl.
4) Someone who takes dowry.
5) Someone who gives the utmost importance to the outer apperaence. Some guys can even lose their self respect in case they see a beautiful lady, even if she is the most useless and dumbest creature on planet earth. They forget their friends; even their moms and dads.
6) Someone who throws trash in public places and would say to his NRI friend that "India is fucking dirty man"
7) Someone who is a religious fanatic.
8) Someone who do not respect women.
9) Someone who is unkind to animals.
10) Someone who is overly materialistic and whose only purpose in life is money.

I am sure there are many other things that I hate but right now these are the only things that are coming to my head i.e. "grotesquehead". I dont know how good a human being I am. Infact, the term "good human being" itself is subjective; but for me, I am my own god so I believe mostly in my viewpoints and I try to act as I believe.