Numbness

I dont know why I am enjoying my own company like never before. I dont like meeting new people. I have started keeping more quiet. Is this depression??? No..i dont think so. Infact I am happy with my life. I have got everything that one can ask for: career,family,friends and what not.
I have started becoming neutral towards most of the things . Rather than hating things or people that annoy me, I have started ignoring them. They dont bother me as much as they used to.I am not getting ecstatic so easily. I feel as if I am in a continuous trance with myself. Whats this numbness all about? Am I turning into a saint? Hell no.
Am I wasting my precious moments of life? Who cares?
When I am alone, I dont think much about the future or past or even present. Half of the time my brain is dead and the other half I get all the random thoughts in the world. Thoughts like "What if I die the next minute? "What if I could travel through time?"Whats in the mind of that dog who is looking at me ?"
Damn..thats so weird.
Am I turning insane? Well none of my friends are telling me this. I am pretty sure thay are going to point out any abnormality if they notice it.
Or I was always like this? Thats why they are not noticing anything.
But I know I am not the way I used to be.
What the hell? Again I am thinking so weird.
Maybe I am on my way to Nirvana. That sounds good. I accept that.